Dance Parties and Rollerskates

Most of you probably have no clue what's going on in my life right now. It's not something I can explain to everyone who says, "So Sarah, what are you doing this fall?" or "So what's going on in your life?" or better yet, my favorite one, "Why are you back from Germany?" If I have been giving you general responses like, "It didn't work out" or "God's at work in my life", it's because it would seriously take me an hour to respond to that question and for people who don't know the stuff I've been going through, it'd take even longer. So sorry if it seems I haven't been answering those questions of curiosity.

It seems like I have been yet again struggling with my sanity, with my head feeling like it's going to explode. I tend to over-think everything. That's one of my not-so-useful traits. I haven't been sleeping- since I got back from Germany. At first I assumed I was jet-lagged. But then, I just couldn't sleep. I've been stretching myself thin emotionally and physically, so yesterday I decided I really really needed to sleep. Sooooo a wonderful lady in the church, my 'mother away from home' gave me one of her sleeping pills. I was excited to get a solid 7-8 hours of sleep. Little did I know how much sleep I needed to catch up on. I took the pill at about 11:45 p.m. and woke up this afternoon at 2:30! Without waking up at all in the night! It was fantastic!!

Then today for dinner I went to Hy-Vee with a good friend to get some chinese. I've been waiting and praying for God to speak to me about decisions in my life (I spent a day at Ada Hayden praying for God to send a mermaid to jump out of the water and tell me what to do! I told you I was worried about losing my sanity!!) We finished dinner and I was just like "Ok, God, speak to me through this fortune cookie". I was half joking, half serious. My friend was just laughing at my stupidity. I opened it and sure enough it said, "You need a new environment". O man, I don't think I've laughed so hard in months. God has a sense of humor. For those of you who don't understand why that is funny, I'll explain it to you in the future, once I can look back and have the patience to explain the last 8 months of my life to everyone.

Someday I'll look back on these last 7-8 months of my life and laugh and see how God was molding me and growing me in so many areas of my life. Someday I'll be able to see all the subtle things He did- all the little jokes He pulled on me. Someday I'll see the trial and be able to praise God for it. I love it when God is just so ironic and even sarcastic at times. I can't wait to hang out in heaven and just have never-ending dance parties. Dancing on the gold-paved streets with David. Those will be the days.

p.s. the title of this post pretty much has nothing to do with it. it's just me being random. manamana.